Lately I have found myself fixating on how people will view myself and my actions. I will beat myself up if i get too drunk and do something stupid or get too emotional. There was a week where I wanted to avoid everyone because I got far too upset on a night out and felt embarassed. The reality is, I am twenty years old, I am not going to always make the best decisions and I am going to get upset. I shouldn’t have to feel bad for that. I am at a point in my life where I don’t want to have to hide away anymore, I want to be overly honest with people. I want to say exactly what im thinking, because lifes to short and I don’t want to go through the days wishing I’d said something, or letting someone make me feel like shit. I can be a mess, I get too drunk, I get annoyed easily, I fall way to hard for people who couldn’t give a shit, but thats just me. I’m also strong willed, I stand up for what I believe in, I never give up without a fight and I always try to encourage others. I have my weaknesses but I have my strengths and I am so sick of trying to please other people. So I’m starting to say what I want to say, do what I want to do and some people don’t like it, but I would rather going through life being true to myself then attempting to please everyone. Your twenties are about making mistakes and learning new things, they aren’t a time to be perfect. So I will continue to go out, I will get upset, I will say too much, I will tell someone they’ve upset me and I won’t feel bad about it.
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