Hey guys, I thought I would give you a small update on uni, a lot of people have been asking questions and I thought it would be easier to answer them all in one post.
Uni isn’t a few months away anymore, in fact, i will be moving into my new flat tomorrow. Which is so strange to be saying, it only feels like yesterday when I was leaving uni because I hated it.
One of the main questions people have been asking is:
“how are you feeling about going back?”.
Honestly? I am kinda terrified.
Uni for me last year was such a difficult time period in my life. It created a lot of problems, it changed me and it made me really ill. (For those of you who have no clue what i’m talking about,and are probably wondering why it was so terrible, you can read my awful experience here.
) So to be going back is such a big thing for me. I’m worried about getting ill again, I’m worried I won’t cope with the work load, but I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t worry.
“What’s the hardest thing about going back?”
The hardest thing for me is knowing that the course i did last year isn’t what i’ll be doing this year. Saying bye to dance was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, sometimes I wish i’d carried on but I know leaving was for the best. If i’m honest, I think deep down I always knew I wanted more from life, I loved dance but never enough. For me it was an escape something that made me feel happy and doing it as a course just took all of that away from me. But despite quitting the course I will be continuing dance on the uni team this year and I am super excited. But i am always not looking forward to seeing the people that made last year so difficult. Knowing i am going to have to see them out it’s great, however, i’m looking forward to showing them that they didn’t win, they didn’t put me off uni and i’m back to fight another day.
“Are you sure you’ve chosen the right course?”
Honestly, ever since sixthform I have been so facinated by anything connected to psychology and criminology. So being able to finally delve deeper into theses subjects excites me so much. Am I worried I won’t like it? Of course I am, but i don’t want to live life wishing i gave it a shot.
“What are your living arangements for this year?”
This year I will be living in an En Suite room, in a flat with 4 other second and third years. I have spoken to them all and they seem so lovely and genuine. Obviously I am still a bit skeptical and wary about living with people i don’t know, because of previous experiences. However, in time I hope i will settle, build good relationships with them, but most importantly feel comfortable.
“I didn’t think you would come back”
Honestly, neither did I. But I am. I might not be ready and I may be super nervous but this is my second chance and I am so determined not to let anyone ruin it for me. As much as I wish I had more time to prepare, I can’t wait for freshers, I can’t wait to see old friends and I can’t wait to make new friends.
Here’s hoping it will be a better year.