It’s almost August, how crazy is that? We are well over halfway through the year and I honestly don’t know where the years gone. It doesn’t seem that long ago since I was writing my goals and resolutions for the year, but in reality its been 7 months and so i thought it was about time I did my annual “mid way through the year” update.
This year so far has been absolute crazy, it’s just been a really weird year full of change, new beginnings and endings. So those of you who know me or who follow my blog, will know that I started the year off in a relationship. A lot of people having been asking questions and speculating about it, and I can confirm that we are no longer together. It was not a messy break up at all and in fact we are still very good friends, we still have a lot of respect for each other. But in the end there just wasn’t a spark anymore, we felt we were much more suited as friends. I don’t want to say too much about this as it’s our business. But one thing I will say is that neither of us did anything wrong, no one was to blame, in the end we just realised we weren’t as compatible as we thought we were and so we did the mature thing and decided to call it a day. I truly believe we will both meet people in the future who are a lot more suited to us as individuals, but until then I am fine with being single and I am thankful to still have him as a friend.
University wise, I finally made it through my first year of university, without quitting (which you can read all about here). And I passed with a 2:1, which I am absolutely over the moon about. I will admit that although I wrote in a previous post that I wanted to attend more lectures in semester two, that didn’t really happen… I tried, and failed. But that is definitely something I want to work on going into second year. I have also finally left halls, which is honestly the best feeling. Next year I will be living in a house with some of my friends, so I am super excited about that. I honestly think living in a positive environment free from judgement will do me the world of good.
Many of you who follow this blog, do so because I talk about mental health, so it’s only right that I discuss this topic. So i started this year feeling awful. I couldn’t go more then two days without having a panic attack and I was just not happy at all. I basically shut myself away. That slowly got better and things got a lot easier, I ended up pushing myself to do more things, but my moods were still really up and down. I was basically stuck in a negative environment.
Once university was finished for the year and I moved back home, my mood improved dramatically. And because my moods improved, I was rarely ill, which was honestly the best feeling. I wont deny the fact there were other influences that were making me smile more, I am honestly so grateful for them, but just living in an environment where I felt like I could be myself instantly helped my anxiety. At the start of this month I wrote about 5 steps to a happier life and whilst I wish I could say I’m still feeling that positive, I’m not. I’ve hit a rough patch and my anxiety is not great right now. There are things going on that I’m really not sure how to deal with or feel about. My health in general is a bit hit or miss at the minute. However, I will say that I am genuinely trying my hardest to find the positives in each day, which is something I would never have done before. I am confident that in time I can build myself up.
Things may not be going the way I want them to right now, but I am so proud of everything I have achieved so far this year and I know for a fact, things will work out soon enough. Positive thinking.
That’s about all I want to discuss today, there’s not much else, but if anyone has any questions please feel free to message me on any of my social medias. Don’t forget to follow for notifications when I upload, I have a lot of posts planned over the upcoming weeks and thank you for reading.
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