Hey guys this is going to be a long one so you might want to grab yourself a cup of tea or a glass of wine (it is the season to be merry after all) and make yourself comfy.
2017 has been an interesting year, now as much as I have hated it at times, I will say that although it wasn’t the best, it has definitely been a year of challenges and growth. It has been a year that has taught me many things and made me realise what really matters. It has been a year that has taught me that we as individuals have complete control over our lives and that a lot can change in the space of a year. I am ready to say goodbye to this chapter in my life and I am determined to make 2018 the best one yet. So here is my 2017 reflection:
I started 2017 off with a bang, partying into the early hours with friends and family, I couldn’t have wished for a better start to the year. A few days into January I set myself some new years resolutions and looking over them, I only achieved one of them, but 10/10 for effort right? However, the one I did work on, was to ‘say yes more’, which is definitely something I have achieved this year.
In January I also launched diondiane.co.uk, which I am still super proud of and used it throughout January as a platform to speak out about anxiety, mental health and IBS. Something I am very open about.
Socially, January was a very messy month full of nights out, including the night I met Bradley from S Club 7, my childhood crush. January was a great start to the year.
February was the month of new beginning and first times. Me and my ex celebrated our first anniversary together, we spent the night in the arcade, playing mini golf, riding the Nottingham Eye and eating great food. I also competed in my first dance competition with my university dance team, it was such an amazing experience and we ended the competition coming in 3rd place for contemporary, a great achievement.
February was also the month in which I started a new job, working for Superdry and met two of my great friends Postle and Brandon at a thrift shop social – not that I remember this night in the slightest.
In March I wrote a letter to my past self, it was so nice to be able to look back on recent years and see how much I had accomplished so far. March also came with many nights out and another dance competition. This time we competed at Loughbourgh, unfortunately we didn’t place but we left the weekend on a high and I was really proud of everyone on the team. Not only did I compete with the dance team, I also found out I would be the teams new social sec from September onwards, something I was really looking forward too. I also managed to sneak pizza into mosh which was an absolute game changer, no more having to leave the club early to get food.
March was also a very challenging month, especially in terms of my living arrangements. I honestly hated living in halls, it caused far too much stress and anxiety for me. However, I am super thankful to have had Nicole there, she was honestly my rock and if it wasn’t for her, I would definitely have moved out. So thank you Nicole.
In April I went on tour to Croatia with the dance team and it was honestly one of the best weeks. My nickname for the week was messiest fresher, which I won’t argue with, as I definitely lived up to this name during the week. It was such a good week full of fancy dress, pool parties and lots of boozing, there were also cut chins and scratched bums, but the less said about that the better. One of the highlights of the trip was when me and Yasin ran off to go exploring, we found some beautiful sites and it made me more determined then ever to go travelling in 2018.
April also saw the end of my first year on the dance team and what better way to celebrate it then with an end of year meal. Here I was presented with the socialite of the year award for all the boozing and socialising I did throughout the year.
May is always my favourite month because it is my birthday. This year I celebrated turning 20 and it was such a good birthday. I had been feeling really down prior to my birthday and so cancelled my plans as I didn’t want a fuss, however, deep down my bf at the time knew that I wanted to celebrate more then anything so he planned a surprise birthday for me. During the afternoon we went to mini golf, which I of course won, which I was super happy about. Then in the evening we had both planned a night out anyways but little did I know, he had invited some of the lads and some of the girls from the dance team out too, it was honestly an amazing night out and I could not have wished for better people to spend the day with, thank you Kyle for making my 20th so great.
Not only did I celebrate turning 20, I also celebrated finally completing first year of uni. After not making it through my initial first year at uni, (which you can read about here), I was so proud of making it to the end and finally being able to say I had finished a full year at University. A huge achievement.
May was also the month I explored Trentham gardens in stoke and signed for a house for second year. I also performed in the end of year dance showcase, it was a very action packed month.
In June I finally got to move out of halls, It was honestly the best feeling to be able to move away from a toxic environment and be able to go home for summer. I also got to return to my favourite place in the whole world: Lanzarote. I went with my then boyfriend and whilst things may not have worked out for us, I am so thankful that I got to share my happy place with someone who loved it as much as I did. It was a week of good food, sun and exploring. I also finally got to visit Timanfaya National Park, which is home to the volcanoes of Lanzarote, it was super interesting to hear about the history of the island and see the volcanic springs in action, I did attempt to vlog it but it was so windy that the footage is all over the place. However, the holiday also made us realise our relationship had changed, it just wasn’t the same anymore and so we had a lot to think about, this meant that the end of June was a very confusing and stressful time.
In July me and Kyle decided the mature thing to do was call it a day on our relationship. We knew it was the right thing to do as we felt we had gotten to a point where we would work more just as friends. It wasn’t a messy break up at all and I am glad it ended how it did. It was a tricky decision but after this I started to feel more happy and carefree. I spent my time working on myself, seeing friends, going on nights out and just making memories. I was also reunited with my two best friends who I hadn’t seen in months.
Nothing exciting really happened in August, I basically just worked and went on nights out. Including one of my favourite nights out, pictured above. I also got ready to return to uni, something which I was very nervous for. I was finally going into second year, but this would also be my first time at uni single, which I was really worried about.
We also said goodbye to Pablo as he set off on his new adventure in London, this was one of the messiest nights out we as a group have ever been on (bar tequila night, which I may do a storytime on), but it was definitely one of the best nights.
September was definitely my favourite month of the year. I was super happy for the whole of the month, I felt on top of everything, I was productive and I felt super excited to be back at University. I moved into my new house which was such a great feeling, living in a house is honestly 100% better then living in halls. I reconnected with old friends, started back at dance as social sec, met my support mentor for the year and started to love my course. Not only that but I also met some amazing people and had some amazing nights out during freshers and after.
In October I received some bad news that my friend Dylan, (who I have spoken about previously on my blog), didn’t have long left. Now this was really difficult to hear and sadly October was also the month he passed away. This was a difficult few weeks, however, I will always look back on my friendship with him and be thankful. He was such a strong boy and no matter what he always smiled and always looked out for everyone else. His level of strength and determination is something I will always admire and work towards and he will never be forgotten.
October was a definitely a difficult month, my mental health took a huge kick and my immune system shut down on me, ending up with me in hospital for a kidney infection. However, despite the months bad parts it was also a month of great nights out and strong friendships. I finally got to meet Emma, after months of talking online and it felt like I had known her my whole life. She introduced me to a cute little cafe in Nottingham called the Curious Manor and it was all Alice in Wonderland theme, right up my street. I also got super close to some of my dance children, Louise, Caitlin and Sam in particular and made great friendships with some of the rugby league lads. The lads always get me ridiculously drunk, leading to the worst hangovers, but they also keep me sane.
In October I also had my first official social as social sec: The Dance Welcome Party. We centred the whole night around a Disney theme, committee were princesses, me being Snow Tanned, then returners were my 7 giants, whilst the freshers were frogs. It was such a fun night.
It was also the month of my best friend Vina’s birthday and so I bit the bullet and headed up to hull for the night to celebrate her 21st in style. I had such a lovely time, drinking cocktails, eating Italian and being able to have a good old gossip.
November was home to some of the best socials and messiest nights of my life, which I am going to blame Maddocks for. All i’m going to say is a fishbowl of vodka coke may seem like a good idea, but it’s really not, unless you want to spend the next day drunk and then ridiculously hungover. However, these messy nights were some of the best. I also hosted my very first bonfire party, something I have wanted to do for years, it was one of my favourite nights of the year. There was also the classified social, which I wasn’t too keen on going to initially but it ended up being one of my favourite socials of the semester, I ended the night very drunk, with a ripped shirt and covered in sharpie. Thanks lads.
Now November wasn’t all fun and games, it was also a month which was full of stress. Deadline stress was real, because silly me left everything till the last minute again and decided she would give up on lectures, not clever let me tell you. It was also a month where I realised you do not have to put up with anything that is making you feel like shit. Just walk away. Even if at the time it seems like only negatives can come from it, eventually it will work out for the better. It was definitely a month that made me thankful for the people I have in my life and made me realise that I am in control, I get to decide what it in my life.
It was also a month where I challenged myself and pushed my anxiety. Me and my best friend Nicole finally took part in our very first open mic night and it is definitely something I would love to do again. It made me realise how much I miss performing and so I am definitely looking forward to doing more open mics in the new year.
And here we are in the current month and what a year it has been. I started the month with the dance Christmas meal, I had such a great night, I couldn’t wish to be apart of a better team. However, as the month has progressed, like always it has been a tricky one. I always struggle to enjoy it as I miss the people who are no longer with us, but I made it through. December, has been a month of reflection, a month where I have realised how thankful I am for the people in my life, a month where I have put myself first and not put on a show to please other people. Where I realised that it’s okay to go at your own pace, to take your time, rather than rush into anything. And realised I am doing okay, I am making progress.
So whilst 2017 may have been an eventful year, it has also been a year of progress, lessons and growth. I cannot wait to see what 2018 brings me and I am determined to make it the best year yet.
Happy New Year everyone x
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